Seduced by academia

April 20, 2011

I can’t believe it’s almost been a year since I’ve last wrote in this blog. I remember setting this up because I wanted to document my journey through nursing school. Well, I’m almost done with my first year…haha. It’s been NUTS to say the least. My schedule is basically class, clinical, and work. 15 credits of nursing school = 30 credits of regular undergraduate classes. One of my professors was saying it’s essentially like a graduate program. The hardest part is out of the way, so I’m super thankful for that. Right now, I’m on my pediatrics rotation and it’s been cool thus far. I have a new-found respect for peds nurses – I personally can’t do it. To be honest, I was actually really intimidated at the beginning of this rotation. It’s really true when people say that the parents are often the “patients” as well – not to mention the young patient demographic makes for nerve-racking medication administration. I like kids…just not when they’re hooked up to leads and IVs. So much of my health care experience has been in adult med/surg, so peds is so far removed from what I usually do. A couple weeks ago, I actually got to swaddle and hold my first baby…EVER. She was fussy and crying, but I actually got her to smile at me. It was a great feeling and I guess that’s when I realized that peds isn’t too bad.

Overall, life has been good! One of my classes that I was going to take in the summer was canceled, so I actually have the summer off to work and kick it with the homies. It will be a nice hiatus from nursing school. Today, I took a nice walk with a good friend, Leanne, that I hadn’t seen in awhile and we walked to Gas Works park. It was cathartic to get some fresh-air and enjoy the weather; so much of what I’ve been doing has been limited to the confines of my small bedroom. Leanne and I talked a lot about what I wanted to do after nursing school. I will have literally spent 8 years at UW by the time that I’ve graduated – that’s 1/3 of my life. Sick. I always have these life goals of traveling and going to  Cambodia, learning a foreign language, enjoying a new hobby, etc…but school always seems to take precedence. It’s kind of the story of my life. Prior to nursing school,  I told myself I would take a break from student life activities and focus solely on school – but then I end up being elected class president haha.

As much I gripe about school, I actually do love it…but often I get caught between wanting to change the world and wanting to enjoy it. At any rate, I’ve been working on trying to do more of the latter and hopefully, I’ll find time in about a year. Overall, I’m just an insatiable human being – which is both good and bad.  Graduate school is definitely part of my life plan, but we’ll see how it will all pan out.

First things first: PASS NURSING SCHOOL. 6 more weeks to go!

Emotions…

May 6, 2010

Feeling somewhat vexed at the moment and I’m not sure what it stems from. I kind of feel like I’m stuck in a rut, but maybe that will be remedied by my moving back to the U-District to start my nursing studies. This organic chemistry class feels like another hurdle I have to jump through. The good thing is that I only have to pass this class with a 2.0 or better. Chemistry has always been my worst subject, but alas, it is a necessary evil. Even though it’s not my favorite subject, I still want to do well. I’m glad it’s halfway through…still feel as if I’ve got a long ways to go though.

As I’m sitting here and thinking about how to articulate my emotions in a way that it will make sense, I realize that it’s too hard to sort through this conglomeration of mixed emotions. Maybe it has to do with the fact of wanting something you can’t have…actually, I’m pretty sure that’s what is. It’s definitely been weighing on my mind as of late. At the risk of this post becoming too emoesque, I digress. All in all, life is good. As we’re approaching the halfway point of 2010, I can honestly say that it’s been a good year so far. I’ve felt very blessed and I am thankful for everything good that’s happened. It definitely beats the craptastic year that was 2009.

Also, Mother’s Day is this weekend. I have to give a shoutout to my mom, Chanya Chum. Thanks for persevering through communism, working day/night to provide for us in a new country, and for the never-ending support and love. You raised me with a firm hand and for that, I am forever grateful. I love you so much.

It’s hard to imagine that a year ago during this same time, my car was stolen and I was suffering from a stomach ulcer. Now, it’s like life has done a complete 180. It’s only April and so many good things have happened…and I cannot be more thankful than I already am. I also owe it to all the intrinsically good people in my life that have been my unwavering support throughout all the tumultuous times.

I got into my top choice for nursing school today, which means that I was 3/3 for applications. I admit, I have a self-deprecating sense of humor at times and I honestly thought I blew my chances at a couple of the schools. Alas, the next two years will be a taxing, yet rewarding journey. I will definitely make a more conscious effort to blog about it.

Happy Khmer New Year and I hope you all receive as many blessings and I have in recent weeks.

Change is good!

February 17, 2010

For the first time in awhile…things are actually okay. I mean, they’re not perfect, but I don’t expect them to be. It feels good to be finally doing something for myself, you know? I have my proctored essay tonight. If I do well, it could take me straight to the admit pile for nursing school and likewise, it can work against me as well. I am terribly nervous about it, but I am just going to go in there and put my best foot forward and whatever happens…happens. I am not going to lie, I want it really bad. Between work and doing school part-time, I feel like my life has been somewhat of an organized chaos. I crave being entrenched in academia once more and hopefully, my intent is to graduate and work for a while. I can’t tell you how much I look forward to not have to worry about the next exam or paper due. I hate this waiting game that schools make us play. All in all, I just hope to be somewhere in fall quarter. First thing’s first, I have to finish statistics on a strong note. You never know how rusty you are at math until you take your first math class in about 5 years and even if I get a sold ‘B’ then I will be completely satisfied.

Happy Chinese New Year to all!

Surfing the low tide

January 30, 2010

It’s Saturday night and I am sittng here trying to accomplish school work. We’re approaching the halfway point through the quarter and it’s been quite busy thus far! Every day, I am up before 7AM. It’s class on the week days, and then work on the weekends. I miss sleeping in, but in about 6 weeks I’ll be able to do that again. I also miss my weekends. Right now, I’m really contemplating accelerated nursing programs. I think I’d rather work hard for 1 year and get my degree than work somewhat hard (or just as hard), but take 2 years time to receive my nursing degree. We’ll see how it goes. It’s hard not to feel like you’re wasting your youth right now and as much as I enjoy being a student sometimes; I just yearn to travel, see new places, and meet new people. I guess I should not say “wasting my youth” because education is never a waste. The thing is, I just  keep looking forward to the day when I can finally come home from school and not have to think about exams, reading, or study groups for an extended period of time.

Such is life…I’m sure it will be all worth it. I have to keep reminding myself that it’s only temporary and that good things will happen to those that wait.

It starts…

January 5, 2010

So, the quarter has commenced and it actually seems okay thus far…*knock on wood* I submitted one nursing school application yesterday and I got one due next week. I’m extremely paranoid that I’m missing one component of each application, or that I forget to send in my official transcripts. This quarter, I’m taking Statistics and Nutrition. I realize I go out of my way to get things that I want. Since nutrition is online, stats is the only class that I have to actually make my way to campus for. I usually leave my house at 7:10 AM and drive to the park and ride to catch a 7:30 bus. Then, I ride that bus to a transit center and transfer to another bus at 8:15 AM. From there, I usually get to campus around 8:45 AM for my 9:00 AM class. Here’s the part where you guys may think that I crazy….the class is only 50 minutes long, so then I usually take those same two buses back home. Why do I do this to myself? I guess I really value having a good instructor and learning the material well. I admit that I do check ratemyprofessors.com, for it has been too many times that I have had to persevere through mediocre professors. I know it’s all a matter of personal preference and those ratings are probably not the most reliable predictor of an instructor’s performance, but I figure I at least will get into a good sleeping habit and it will force me to wake up early every day. That’s all seven days of the week that I must be up early. I also have to keep reminding myself that it’s only temporary. This is why I love the quarter system…just less than 3 months of this “getting up early” business.

I hope everyone had a fantastic holiday and New Year celebration! I will definitely post pictures soon.

Take care :)

Happy holidays!

December 24, 2009

It’s so crazy to think how fast the year has flown by. Before I know it, I’ll hopefully be done with nursing school at which point I’ll be in my mid 20′s. That’s so crazy. I can recall a sunny day back in August of 1992, the first time I was going to fly and head to Orlando as part of a family vacation. I remember the sun setting and standing in the garage of my old house in Lynnwood with my dad and little brother as we gathered stuff we needed for our trip. I remember being so excited. It’s just bananas to think about how that memory will be 20 years-old in just a couple of years.

Anyway, I just want to wish everyone Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays! For some reason, it just doesn’t feel like Christmas this year. Maybe it’s because I’ve been so busy with school and work as of late…who knows?  This winter break, most of my time will revolve around getting nursing school applications completed. I’ve been rotting my brain over how I can make my personal statements stand out  from 400+ other people. I keep thinking how I can’t wait for April to be here already. That’s when I’ll officially know what I’ll be doing next fall quarter. I guess all I can do right now is just take it one day at a time and enjoy time with family and friends. Grades were recently posted and I was pleasantly surprised. Everybody that knows me will know about my self-deprecating humor. I keep wondering if my decent grades are attributed to me being a better student as an adult-learner, or me just getting easy professors. Whatever the reason, I won’t jinx it. Only a couple more quarters of prerequisites! I can’t wait to look back on this post after I am accepted.

Here’s to a great 2010!

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